My friend, not-just-a-mommy posted a poll a few days ago on religion. Given that I don't have a computer, I can't respond to awesome things like polls and facebook groups with my iphone. So, here I am 4 days later getting to read up on what I missed.
In her poll on religion, I said Christian, non-organized. I grew up in a Southern Baptist Church, and attended one until very recently.
I love the feelings and emotions that you get from church and just really worshipping God with words and songs, WITH others. But, the church I went to, and have gone to for years, AND considered family, just got too small. They felt they had the power to do and say things to other parishoners that I didn't agree with. They were very judgemental, and I just didn't want to be a part of that.
The sermons were recycled and at you. I very seldomly felt uplifted and light of spirit after leaving. I felt, almost sinful, as though I had been to confession. Even though, I hadn't confessed anything, I felt like perhaps the pastor would call up the fact that I hadn't joined as a member, or the fact that I had lived with Chance before we were married, or some other awful thing I'd done.
I know I sin. I know it's wrong. Yet, I don't need a church, or a group of other sinners, committing sins at this very moment, to tell me I am/do sinful things.
I didn't mean to go here, but I guess I will.
I'm really a prudish person, so it might surprise you that I am OK with homosexuality. That's a no-no in Southern Baptist culture. It could be that my cousin, who might as well be my sister, is a lesbian. She's not ashamed of that fact, and my family, God-bless them, they try to be open minded. But, while I know it's probably not what God wants from people, it's no different a sin than my preacher's mother going to the casino every weekend. It's just not, in my world. I could be wrong, I'm no expert, but in my world it isn't.
In my scientific mind, (I know, I know. Gays, religion, and science in one post)
Friday, February 26, 2010
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Ahhhh
So, I finally found a blog background I just LOVE.
Thanks to my friend for using it and posting the site on her blog.
If you use blogger and are looking for a great new layout, try Simply Fabulous. They are lovely.
All thanks, acknowledgements aside, I feel a little creative again. Not going to say I've bounced all the way back from bleh, but I am feeling a little better. Maybe it's the above 40 degrees and sunshine we had today. But wait, snow tonight, and crap tomorrow.
Thanks to my friend for using it and posting the site on her blog.
If you use blogger and are looking for a great new layout, try Simply Fabulous. They are lovely.
All thanks, acknowledgements aside, I feel a little creative again. Not going to say I've bounced all the way back from bleh, but I am feeling a little better. Maybe it's the above 40 degrees and sunshine we had today. But wait, snow tonight, and crap tomorrow.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Did you know?
--That I have never seen Gone with the Wind start to finish? But that I love Cat on a Hot Tin Roof?
--That I would love to up and move to a beach anywhere, as long as it was at least warm, but that my husband would never let me? We have considered buying a vacation home when we have better credit however, since we have no mortgage.
--That I am late for everything, unless it's important? I try not to be, I'm just not a very fast mover.
--That my best friend and I have known each other for more than 20 years, but have truly been best friends for almost exactly that long?
--That Chance drunkenly rubbed previously mentioned bff's boobs when we all lived together? She was too drunk to remember and he has felt guilty for 4 years about it until he confessed this year.
--That I could care less about that last one, but he was really worried I would be pissed?
--That I told her I was pregnant before I told him because he went to the movies with his parents?
--That I've only kissed 1 man, and 2 boys?
--Or that I've only ever made love with that same one man?
--Did you know I was just complaining about my brain not being very creative, and even wrote a blog whining about feeling blah, yet right after I churned this whole sucker out?
I feel a little better. Think I'll go work out.
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--That I would love to up and move to a beach anywhere, as long as it was at least warm, but that my husband would never let me? We have considered buying a vacation home when we have better credit however, since we have no mortgage.
--That I am late for everything, unless it's important? I try not to be, I'm just not a very fast mover.
--That my best friend and I have known each other for more than 20 years, but have truly been best friends for almost exactly that long?
--That Chance drunkenly rubbed previously mentioned bff's boobs when we all lived together? She was too drunk to remember and he has felt guilty for 4 years about it until he confessed this year.
--That I could care less about that last one, but he was really worried I would be pissed?
--That I told her I was pregnant before I told him because he went to the movies with his parents?
--That I've only kissed 1 man, and 2 boys?
--Or that I've only ever made love with that same one man?
--Did you know I was just complaining about my brain not being very creative, and even wrote a blog whining about feeling blah, yet right after I churned this whole sucker out?
I feel a little better. Think I'll go work out.
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Bleh
I really need some motivation. Not even for anything specific, just overall motivation in some direction.
School is always just school, I don't mind learning, but it's the end result not the journey.
Work is just work, and some days I'm really fired up to make a difference, and it's those days my students crap out and don't want to participate, or some other crap thing happens.
Arch has been going through this phase where he wants to be a pain because he has learned how to. Earlier he was throwing his shoes because he can. He was yelling about a ball, as though he couldn't get it, but it was easily in reach right by his shoe.
I'm trying hard to get motivated to work out, but it's hard. I have no muscle tone in places that don't involve carrying Archer, so that's just about everything. I wanted to do p90x with Chance but it's above my ability level.
I want to do family pictures, but the aforementioned issue inhibits my want to document the way I look at the moment.
I was really wanting to get away for spring break. My uncle lives on the south Texas coast, but my mom doesn't want to, and I can't drive 10 hours alone with Archer.
This awful weather is just sickening and doesn't help anything. I think I'm in the early stages of cold weather depression. It has a real name, something affect, but I don't remember what.
I just feel so blah. Something needs to get better soon. I'm not even sure what, just something.
On an unrelated note, I was reading my zodiac the other day and read that the Scorpio (which I am) is a water sign. I'm sure I already knew this. But, it solidified in my mind a few things. I know the things listed in horoscopes and zodiacs are so objective and could fit almost anyone, but I definitely identify with so many of those characteristics. And I hate, hate, hate, and even fear fire a little. It actually scares the crap out of me. And I love rain, though not snow and ice, and I love swimming and other water related acivities. Like taking hour long baths when Arch sleeps. I'm a little like Darryl Hannah in Splash. If could stay in here that would just be heaven.
That's all for today folks. My blah-ness is affecting my whole existence. I can't even come up with 5 letter words in words with friends. I'm sure everyone is cursing me. Hopefully something will change soon!
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School is always just school, I don't mind learning, but it's the end result not the journey.
Work is just work, and some days I'm really fired up to make a difference, and it's those days my students crap out and don't want to participate, or some other crap thing happens.
Arch has been going through this phase where he wants to be a pain because he has learned how to. Earlier he was throwing his shoes because he can. He was yelling about a ball, as though he couldn't get it, but it was easily in reach right by his shoe.
I'm trying hard to get motivated to work out, but it's hard. I have no muscle tone in places that don't involve carrying Archer, so that's just about everything. I wanted to do p90x with Chance but it's above my ability level.
I want to do family pictures, but the aforementioned issue inhibits my want to document the way I look at the moment.
I was really wanting to get away for spring break. My uncle lives on the south Texas coast, but my mom doesn't want to, and I can't drive 10 hours alone with Archer.
This awful weather is just sickening and doesn't help anything. I think I'm in the early stages of cold weather depression. It has a real name, something affect, but I don't remember what.
I just feel so blah. Something needs to get better soon. I'm not even sure what, just something.
On an unrelated note, I was reading my zodiac the other day and read that the Scorpio (which I am) is a water sign. I'm sure I already knew this. But, it solidified in my mind a few things. I know the things listed in horoscopes and zodiacs are so objective and could fit almost anyone, but I definitely identify with so many of those characteristics. And I hate, hate, hate, and even fear fire a little. It actually scares the crap out of me. And I love rain, though not snow and ice, and I love swimming and other water related acivities. Like taking hour long baths when Arch sleeps. I'm a little like Darryl Hannah in Splash. If could stay in here that would just be heaven.
That's all for today folks. My blah-ness is affecting my whole existence. I can't even come up with 5 letter words in words with friends. I'm sure everyone is cursing me. Hopefully something will change soon!
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Saturday, February 20, 2010
Great day
Today's forecast called for dreary gray skies. That and Archer waking us up at 730, I was sure this day would be awful.
As Chance and I began grating each others nerves I asked him to take us driving. I really dislike driving for leisure, because if I drive we have to take my truck and it's too small for all 3 of us to be comfortable, as his is a standard.
After much sweet talking, he agreed. I told him to take us where ever. Generally when we do this, we both gaze at the pretty houses and wish we lived in them, but with the fog even the road trip seemed yucky and doomed.
We start heading toward his parents, and then past, so I knew we were headed for the lake and I was instantly ticked that I hadn't thought to grab my camera.
We cruised through the golf course and past the marina. We saw several geese and even a pelican. Then we headed down "Cove Road," here in Oklahoma we are simple with names, so as you imagine, it's a big long road that winds through the coves on the lake.
The water was up fairly high, and the ducks were scattered all over the water. It was so beautiful. That yucky fog was hovering over the water in such a photographic way that I was internally beating myself or not bringing it again.
We eventually stopped and let Arch get out and move. He loved it. He loves nature and being outside, he just wanted to run and inspect leaves and fallen trees. But mostly, he wanted to run TO the water and get in. I had to pull him back. He went right in, no hesitation. I had to drag the poor thing away.
We spent a few hours just milling around, and this has just been such a wonderful day.
Not my shot, but you get the idea.
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As Chance and I began grating each others nerves I asked him to take us driving. I really dislike driving for leisure, because if I drive we have to take my truck and it's too small for all 3 of us to be comfortable, as his is a standard.
After much sweet talking, he agreed. I told him to take us where ever. Generally when we do this, we both gaze at the pretty houses and wish we lived in them, but with the fog even the road trip seemed yucky and doomed.
We start heading toward his parents, and then past, so I knew we were headed for the lake and I was instantly ticked that I hadn't thought to grab my camera.
We cruised through the golf course and past the marina. We saw several geese and even a pelican. Then we headed down "Cove Road," here in Oklahoma we are simple with names, so as you imagine, it's a big long road that winds through the coves on the lake.
The water was up fairly high, and the ducks were scattered all over the water. It was so beautiful. That yucky fog was hovering over the water in such a photographic way that I was internally beating myself or not bringing it again.
We eventually stopped and let Arch get out and move. He loved it. He loves nature and being outside, he just wanted to run and inspect leaves and fallen trees. But mostly, he wanted to run TO the water and get in. I had to pull him back. He went right in, no hesitation. I had to drag the poor thing away.
We spent a few hours just milling around, and this has just been such a wonderful day.
Not my shot, but you get the idea.
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Small make over
My whole house received a make over this week.
We ordered new windows a few weeks ago, they came in Monday and Chance finally got them installed this week.
The trim around them outside is still a little shabby, but we're going to just paint the trim for now and eventually put a stucco like coating on.
A few weeks ago we also got a new 6 pane window back door.
So there is much more light, and a lot less cool breezes around here!! : )
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We ordered new windows a few weeks ago, they came in Monday and Chance finally got them installed this week.
The trim around them outside is still a little shabby, but we're going to just paint the trim for now and eventually put a stucco like coating on.
A few weeks ago we also got a new 6 pane window back door.
So there is much more light, and a lot less cool breezes around here!! : )
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Wednesday, February 17, 2010
16 and pregnant
I watched this for the first time last night and I swear my iq dropped.
Seriously though, having a baby was hard, and there were so many things I didn't expect. But this, and I emphasize, girl, actually expected that her mom should just take care of her baby while she partied.
Honestly, if you have no husband or baby daddy, don't even expect to get to take baths, not to mention going to a high school party.
Speaking of the baby daddy, want to know her list of why she wanted to stay with him. He's hot. He was, WAS, a model. Now he's a washed up ex(supposedly) drug user who lives with his parents.
What draws girls to this? These guys aren't winners. They don't have cars, or jobs. I wouldn't even date a guy without a job, not to mention sleep with him.
Someone needs to pick out these girls and tell them daily how beautiful they are from day one. Let's build self esteem and stop showing these vapid self centered little brats on tv.
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Seriously though, having a baby was hard, and there were so many things I didn't expect. But this, and I emphasize, girl, actually expected that her mom should just take care of her baby while she partied.
Honestly, if you have no husband or baby daddy, don't even expect to get to take baths, not to mention going to a high school party.
Speaking of the baby daddy, want to know her list of why she wanted to stay with him. He's hot. He was, WAS, a model. Now he's a washed up ex(supposedly) drug user who lives with his parents.
What draws girls to this? These guys aren't winners. They don't have cars, or jobs. I wouldn't even date a guy without a job, not to mention sleep with him.
Someone needs to pick out these girls and tell them daily how beautiful they are from day one. Let's build self esteem and stop showing these vapid self centered little brats on tv.
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Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Decided something.
So, I've had a crummy weekend involving asshole cops and idiots who can't drive legally.
Needless to say, the entire police system, entire city/political system, in my town is on the brink of utter corruption.
Now, there are pros:
The schools are ok
My parents are 15 minutes away
I love my babysitter
Our house is FREE
And there are cons:
Chance's (and my) parents are 15 minutes away
Archer would literally be a minority in his class
There are few decent restaurants
I'm an hour from work
The town we lived in while I was in college is my favorite place to be. I was heartbroken when we moved here. My favorite restaurant is there, there is a turnpike which is 40 minutes from work or OKC. The schools are much nicer. There is a college there, and that just increases curb appeal. There are old residential homes on avenues with trees and grass.
So, I decided last night on my way to class, while driving down the beautiful main road that we are moving back. Chance said he isn't opposed to it.
So, while I had dreams of far off places, maybe just 20 minutes is all I need to enjoy life more?
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Needless to say, the entire police system, entire city/political system, in my town is on the brink of utter corruption.
Now, there are pros:
The schools are ok
My parents are 15 minutes away
I love my babysitter
Our house is FREE
And there are cons:
Chance's (and my) parents are 15 minutes away
Archer would literally be a minority in his class
There are few decent restaurants
I'm an hour from work
The town we lived in while I was in college is my favorite place to be. I was heartbroken when we moved here. My favorite restaurant is there, there is a turnpike which is 40 minutes from work or OKC. The schools are much nicer. There is a college there, and that just increases curb appeal. There are old residential homes on avenues with trees and grass.
So, I decided last night on my way to class, while driving down the beautiful main road that we are moving back. Chance said he isn't opposed to it.
So, while I had dreams of far off places, maybe just 20 minutes is all I need to enjoy life more?
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Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Craving
I have been having cravings lately of the most selfish kind.
I not only want, but feel as though I need time alone. It's so great that Archer is in a bedtime routine so that I can take extra long baths all alone.
I feel like my drive time to and from work just isn't long enough to satisfy my need to be alone.
I know that sounds awful, but my sanity needs a break from voices, wants, needs, trash, dishes, and laundry.
I don't really think Chance minds, because that's when he works out. I even tried to work out with him, but my body is still in shock and extreme pain from the first P90x routine. I think I need to work my way up a little, and not just jump right in.
Eh, for now I'll stick to the hottest of baths.
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I not only want, but feel as though I need time alone. It's so great that Archer is in a bedtime routine so that I can take extra long baths all alone.
I feel like my drive time to and from work just isn't long enough to satisfy my need to be alone.
I know that sounds awful, but my sanity needs a break from voices, wants, needs, trash, dishes, and laundry.
I don't really think Chance minds, because that's when he works out. I even tried to work out with him, but my body is still in shock and extreme pain from the first P90x routine. I think I need to work my way up a little, and not just jump right in.
Eh, for now I'll stick to the hottest of baths.
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Friday, February 5, 2010
Mother of the year
I definitely qualified for worst parent of the year. I let Archer fall over the side edge of the walmart cart. He has a big bump and scrape on his head/face.
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Thursday, February 4, 2010
Back to work!!
Finally. I got to go back to work today. It felt good to be doing something.
Also, I FINALLY got a work computer. That will make my life so much more enjoyable, and efficient if I might say so. Of course, one glance at my calender (at three o clock mind you) reminded me that I have an IEP due tomorrow. Apparently I was still stuck in January. Hopefully the parents can come in tomorrow! oops.
The weather wasn't so bad today. It was still chilly, but only misty, not rainy. That helped my mood also.
My cousin and aunt who usually go skiing for spring break mentioned they were tired of winter weather. SO, I suggested we load up and go to my uncles in South Texas. Even though it's always cooler there on spring break than summer or fall, it's still warmer than it is here. The idea that we might get to see some kind of beach really lifed my mood. : )
I'm almost on cloud 3.
Also, I FINALLY got a work computer. That will make my life so much more enjoyable, and efficient if I might say so. Of course, one glance at my calender (at three o clock mind you) reminded me that I have an IEP due tomorrow. Apparently I was still stuck in January. Hopefully the parents can come in tomorrow! oops.
The weather wasn't so bad today. It was still chilly, but only misty, not rainy. That helped my mood also.
My cousin and aunt who usually go skiing for spring break mentioned they were tired of winter weather. SO, I suggested we load up and go to my uncles in South Texas. Even though it's always cooler there on spring break than summer or fall, it's still warmer than it is here. The idea that we might get to see some kind of beach really lifed my mood. : )
I'm almost on cloud 3.
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Apologies are in order.
I would like to apologize to anyone who is still reading.
I am being a big whiny baby about the weather. But the thing is, I can't complain to anyone I know because they are suffering right next to me.
So, I'm sorry. I'll stop whining. Maybe. Except that, it's supposed to rain/snow again this weekend. So, I'll promise to try to stop whining.
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I am being a big whiny baby about the weather. But the thing is, I can't complain to anyone I know because they are suffering right next to me.
So, I'm sorry. I'll stop whining. Maybe. Except that, it's supposed to rain/snow again this weekend. So, I'll promise to try to stop whining.
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So proud
No gags or eyerolls please. : )
My wonderful husband ordered new widows and took me to order a new bed yesterday.
Today, he decided to paint our bedroom. It had been unfinished before, just texture on the drywall. Now it is a creamy color called Ginger.
Not that he doesn't take care of us anyway, but I'm so pleased that he did all this on his time off.
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My wonderful husband ordered new widows and took me to order a new bed yesterday.
Today, he decided to paint our bedroom. It had been unfinished before, just texture on the drywall. Now it is a creamy color called Ginger.
Not that he doesn't take care of us anyway, but I'm so pleased that he did all this on his time off.
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Opinions please
We bought a new bed yesterday. Ours was just awful for 2 people. One person could do just fine, but when there are two only one of you is getting even half rest.
Archer has been sleeping with us ( I know it's horrible, but it's easier.) because his bedroom window broke and we didn't want to fix just one.
To the point, what is your opinion if putting our full size bed in his room for him to use?
Pros:
We won't have to buy a new bed frame when he would outgrow a twin bed.
He's already used to sleeping in it.
It saved money.
Cons:
It's kind of tall. (The monkey he is, he has been climbing on and off of it since before his birthday.)
We will still have to buy a mattress eventually.
It's big, and I want him to stay a baby forever.
Any opinions are welcome. TIA
ETA:
We also ordered new windows yesterday, so that's no longer an issue.
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Monday, February 1, 2010
Almost over
I am so sick of winter weathe and it's after shocks.
Do you want to know what my very first instinct was when I saw that ice storm was announced? I knew we would be out of school and I wanted to drive straight to my uncles in south Texas and enjoy some warmer weather.
Our power gas gone off three times, if you read the previous posts you will see I suffered several electronic casualties. I'm just pleased our major electronics were on a surge protector.
I'm ready for spring. Groundhog, don't make me hurt you.
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Do you want to know what my very first instinct was when I saw that ice storm was announced? I knew we would be out of school and I wanted to drive straight to my uncles in south Texas and enjoy some warmer weather.
Our power gas gone off three times, if you read the previous posts you will see I suffered several electronic casualties. I'm just pleased our major electronics were on a surge protector.
I'm ready for spring. Groundhog, don't make me hurt you.
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